Men. I love them, I hate them, and I can’t stay away from them. They’re my greatest pleasure and my biggest disappointment. Every day as an escort, I see the best and worst of them—powerful, confident, generous, deceitful, selfish, and weak, all wrapped into the same expensive suits and wedding rings.
Most of my clients have wives or girlfriends waiting at home, and if that doesn’t make a woman distrust men, I don’t know what will. I know their secrets. I see their hypocrisy up close—the “good husbands” who swear their marriages are sexless, the “faithful boyfriends” who insist it’s just this once. They lie so easily, so effortlessly, and I wonder: Do they ever tell the truth?
And yet, despite it all, I still love men. Not just for what they pay me (though, let’s be honest, their wallets are a big part of the appeal), but for what makes them so intoxicatingly simple. Their drive, their focus, their raw physical and mental strength—it’s all so predictable, so easy to navigate, and that turns me on in ways I can’t explain. The way they take charge, how they fill out a tailored suit, the deep, commanding tone of their voices—it’s all a dangerous addiction I can’t shake.
I know the risks. I know that, as a woman in my line of work, every man I meet has the potential to be both a protector and a predator. Men crave control, and some will take it by any means necessary. That’s why I stay sharp, stay guarded, and never forget that, in this game, I’m the prize but also the prey.
And as much as I love men, I know one thing for sure—I’ll never marry one. Not because I don’t want to, but because I’ve seen too much. The perfect man is a fantasy, a mirage I refuse to chase. But still, I hold onto a small, reckless hope that somewhere out there, a man exists who can prove me wrong. A man strong enough to break through my walls, honest enough to earn my trust, and powerful enough to stand by my side.
Maybe I’ll never find him. Maybe he doesn’t exist. But until then, I’ll keep loving and hating men in equal measure—and getting paid for both.